Still Going Strong!

            Day three has been pretty successful.  I am feeling a bit hungrier than yesterday, which is causing my ADD to kick into high gear while trying to complete PhD work and prepare for the upcoming school year; however, I am still positive and finding ways to return my thinking from food to work.  I have always been a horrible night person, completely flipping my days and nights in the summers.  This summer is no different.  So, I did not fall asleep until well after six A.M., and was awake and playing Yatzee on my phone by eleven A.M.  I ran a couple of errands, came home, had a protein shake, and promptly went back to a restless sleep until around 8:30 this evening.  I give myself a hard time for sleeping so much because I could be getting so much done if I didn’t sleep, but it is what it is.  I have accepted that part of my personality.  

            While I was attempting to sleep, I did have an entertaining dream, LOL.  I was working in a perfume-shop-slash-hair-salon in England.  There was some sort of party going on in the shop, and I ate a plate of cheese and crackers and had a few glasses of wine.  Everyone was having a grand time, until someone yelled to me, “Lisa! You can’t eat! You are having surgery!”  The rest of the dream was me calling the doctor and trying to figure out if I had messed up my chances to have the surgery.  Needless to say, I was a bit disoriented when I woke up, but relieved to know that it was all a dream and that I had not ruined my progress.  Gwen, next time I get my hair done -- no cheese and crackers in the salon! :-)

            On a happier note, I did meet my exercise goal of taking Cira for a walk around the block and doing 50 ab crunches.  Tomorrow I will exercise, too.  I am not sure what form that exercise will take at this time.  I will do some more crunches -- when I go to the basement to feed the cats. LOL.  I chatted with a friend tonight and we are making plans to set up a walking schedule after surgery.  So excited, Jen!! We are going to be walking machines! Cira will love it, and I can show Evan and Alexa how to geocache.  I have a sneaky suspicion that they will love it.  Also, several friends have mentioned that they are going to start or renew their own journeys to good health after reading about mine.  AWESOME! We can do this with the love and support of each other. 

            And, that is why I started this blog.  We all feel like we are alone in the struggles with weight, exercise, or other health issues, but we are not.  I am not the only one who walks past a store front window, catches a glimpse of myself, and thinks, “Who is that? Oh Damn! It’s me! God, I didn’t realize how big I had gotten!” Nope.  Not alone in that one.  Or, I am not alone when heading to the plus-sized  stores or sections and pulling out my current size, trying it on, and realizing that the size is not longer my size.  Clothes back on and home I go. I will wear my size 20s until the threads fall out because I refuse to go up another size . . . .  yet, I end up back in the store because I HAVE to buy something to wear to work. 

            I had a theory about the Baskin-Robbins store in my local mall.  It was the only food store, besides Orange Julius, that was not in the Food Court.  Where was it?  Next to Lane Bryant.  The plus-sized women’s clothing store.  My theory was that it was put there so that when I left LB depressed because it was the only store in the mall where I could buy clothes, I could comfort myself with a big ice-cream cone!  Some people have called me crazy, but I think there may have been some truth to my madness. . .

            Tomorrow will be the first real challenge of the full-liquid diet.  I am going to Rodney’s in Irwin to see my hubby’s band and our friend’s band.  I will not be able to eat or drink anything but my shakes, water, and decaf.  I will prevail! It will suck, but I will prevail! Nothing can stop me now.