Whew! What a crazy day! I went to bed at 7 a.m. and was up at 10:15 to get moving.
Had to get my hair, mani, and pedi done and stop at the post
office. Plus, I wanted to stop at
Hallmark to get some Ozzy things, which meant I bought other stuff that I didn’t
need, lol. Target to buy a wedding
present for Jena
I had to
stop taking my medication, as I explained, and I am trying very hard not to be
manic about the things that I want to get accomplished before Wednesday. With the Zoloft, I was able to maintain focus
and not get so worried and hyped up about my to-do list and my mind wasn’t
racing nonstop. It doesn’t change me as
a person, but it just helped me be a better person. However, suddenly my laptop won’t connect to the Internet for
some reason so I had to use Glenn’s to try and get some work done, but I can’t
focus and am upset because I can’t figure out why my laptop doesn’t work but
his will. Then, I started thinking about my buddy Puck and how much I miss that cat. He was always by my side, no matter what and it is so hard to work at my desk all of the time without his paw on my arm while I am typing. So now I’m stressed because I
am not getting any work completed and I have to go to bed and try to sleep. Ugh. I hate crying out of frustration. Makes me feel like an incompetent fool. Not my best night so far, lol.
On a
brighter note, one purchase made today was a pair of ankle weights. I have been doing a great job walking Cira
each day, so I thought that I would up the ante by adding 2.5 pound each ankle
weights. It is a step toward working a
bit harder to get in shape and be more active.
I can tell that my clothes are starting to get a bit looser, which is
motivating me to be a bit more active.
Well, my
friends, this night has ended on a rough note and I need to try and sleep and
start over tomorrow. Tonight things just
overwhelmed me a bit, which I guess should be expected at least once on this journey. Wish me luck with the computer. . .and only
four more days!
My Puck <3
I used to take Zoloft as well, 100mg per day because my anxiety was so bad I would have panic attacks. (working in customer service jobs do that to you) Well I had to abrubtly stop taking it as it had to be out of my system for at least 6 months before I even thought about getting pregnant. Let me.tell you, in about a week in a half the side affects wore off and I never.felt better. One of my best friends decided to do the same and her side.affects lasted for a bit longer but she loves how she feels that she's not taking the Zoloft anymore.
ReplyDeleteMy point in this is that maybe since you have to stop taking it that after your surgery you won't need to take it anymore. Hopefully this next big step you are planning on taking will cause all of the worry and anxiousness to disappear. ^_^
Thank you so much for sharing. . .I am hoping that I can NOT start again. It will be out of my system for the most part. Part of this journey is a beginning again, so I would like being med-free to be part of that beginning. Congrats on your success!
DeleteP&L,
Lisa
Every journey has speed bumps to slow us down & detours that may take us to unplanned places, but remember: One rough night is just that...One rough night. Today is a new day & a chance to start again & if things get rough again, it's ok. Just remember to breathe & maybe redirect yourself to something you *can control. You got this!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Jen. :-) I definitely hit a road bump, for sure. But today was wonderful and I am feeling like that I am back in a good place. Thanks for the inspiration!
DeleteP&L,
Lisa